I'm getting a really wierd side effect of happy days. They melt away all my automatic self defence reactions, and this is sort of a problem, because they're not in place to keep other people out, but to keep me out of myself. I ended yesterday by falling down in the rain miserable, and crying sporadically. It was quite the fall-apart. It's a little alarming.
life's not so bad Those are the comments I'm used to, especially "life can't be that sad." Oddly, they never happen when I'm actually upset, only when I'm blank. I went home on transit once bawling, crying uncontrollably. No one said anything, hardly anyone looked at me. Society's a strange place.
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Date: 2005-11-02 08:24 pm (UTC)life's not so bad
Those are the comments I'm used to, especially "life can't be that sad." Oddly, they never happen when I'm actually upset, only when I'm blank. I went home on transit once bawling, crying uncontrollably. No one said anything, hardly anyone looked at me. Society's a strange place.