this is your fault

[foxtongue]

she knows what kissing's like

Gravity plucks
the apple from the tree
easier than any hand
from flesh to divine
it's all memory
the contest
the days next to water

She spoke quietly, looking out a window that was really a sheet of rain, her eyes painted electric green. "We didn't have to talk at all. This town, the lights go dim when I press the power button. There's a gasp, a sigh, and the energy inside collapses. You into me, relationships wearing coats of particles over wire. Tonight I miss you. I remember my name from your voice, how the inflection was different."

The phone is a bare sliver of plastic, silver and blue-lit from within. "No, I can survive like this. Bare walls aren't as taboo as an affection lapse. I felt like that bed was a refugee camp, finally I could stop running." There's a cup in front of her, slowly being stirred. The spoon is tarnished, antique and ornate with a dipped rose on the handle.

"I don't know what makes you beautiful. When you reflect off my eyes, my heart eats you as shadow, intrinsic but ethereal, to live off later. Every moment with you feeds me, satisfies hollows inside me which say, 'we have gone hungry long enough, there is no turning back'. I can't help myself. Your eyes shone with a light that was devastating. It was converting, a religion of only you and I together in a little nameless room."

She smiles, a new expression. She looks cut out of time. A glossy magazine spread featuring smooth lines and gray.

"I don't know if I can explain. I knew I was flaunting something when I came in, that I was changing rules with my behaviour, but I continued onward. Before there was you and I feeling awkward, admit it. I was pushing past and forward. I was right on track until I was derailed by your eyes. Crash and burn and this is love in a manner I'd never encountered. Suddenly I was your salvation. I was every epiphany in the middle of the night over your entire life. You were the metatron and I the heaviest mote of light to have ever been dropped spoken from your lips. You made me think of fire, of flying." Her long hair has fallen into her face and she pushes it back with one hand as she leans back in her chair, adjusting her skirt and crossing her legs at the thigh. Her stockings are black.

"There's many nameless rooms, I know, I've lived in them, but they were not that one, they were not right there. That was a flowered wallpaper sheath for power in the middle of the night, that was a terrible fire that blazed in the softest little colours. You want to know what I thought? 'This is permission,' I thought, 'for anything I want to do with you. This is something I have never seen before. If I am lucky, I will see it again. There will be no furnace falling from the sky to consume you, there will be no front page accident hurling metal like rain to dash brains into the pavement.'"

Comments

[umbriel.livejournal.com]

And you say you can't write.
This is love as it should be.

[porphyre.livejournal.com]

I've taken time to fix the formatting. Opine?

[umbriel.livejournal.com]

I like it :)
It's lost a little of you,
but it's gained flow in its place.

[jaromil.livejournal.com]

excellent. a nice oasis in a world of blogging crap.

[porphyre.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's nice to know that these sorts of posts are appreciated. I tend to think that most people lurk only for the links.

[plaidalicious.livejournal.com]

pretty, evocative, somehow melancholy yet hopeful

Girly, you always write moods for me...Love ya!

[porphyre.livejournal.com]

I suppose I should wax lovey when I've had chocolate to dispel the melancholy, as it seems to be a fixture.

[mgoodbar.livejournal.com]

This makes me sad, but in a good way. It reminds me of the masses of people that find affection, & wishing that they could stay in that moment forever. The last paragraph especially. But my perspective is a little skewed of late.

[porphyre.livejournal.com]

I think I'm going to try and record this one for you, make a quiet mp3 for when you're alone at night and can't sleep.